I am super excited to be sending this update! This delay has proven to be a blessing in disguise in many ways, but the “disguise” has some days been more apparent than the blessing. Good news…all of the kids are alive and there is now a light at the end of the tunnel…
We love our kids, but man…being holed up in a house with 7 kids and no schedule is enough to turn Mother Teresa into a monster. We have one son in particular; I won’t mention any names (starts with a J and ends with an “immy”) who has a tendency to question me. “I don’t think this is the way, Mom,” “We are going to be late, Mom.” “You’re going to forget, Mom…” His questions leave me frustrated, offended, and often, hurt. Why? He’s just trying to be sure things don’t go wrong, right? Yes. But he feels like he has to because underneath the anxiety is a little boy who doesn’t trust that I am looking out for him and have his best interest at heart.
As much as this may hurt my feelings (not to mention my pride) for my son to consistently doubt me, I do the same to my all-wise, all-powerful, all-loving, and perfect Father. This process has had many ups and downs and I’ve often felt like we’re on a roller coaster of emotions. Each time God decided to change the plans and mess up my perfectly controlled and comfortable little world, I like Jimmy began to doubt and become anxious about what might happen next. The Spirit has brought Matthew 7:9 to mind several times, “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!”
Because I am flawed and apparently “evil,” Jimmy actually has reason to doubt my love, adequacy, and intentions. But I have no right or reason to doubt a God who can do no wrong. Instead of getting frustrated with me and calling me a “know it all” (not that I do that to Jimmy…) He patiently pursues me, proves Himself faithful/trustworthy, and wins my heart over and over. This is what His word means in James 1:3 “the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” He is using these little tests by showing himself strong and building our faith in Him! This result of this test is no different than the others…He came through. Not only did we receive an email today with news that our visas were approved, we were granted 3 year visas!!!! Our logistics Coordinator who has been in Africa over 30 years called this “unprecedented.” This will save us a lot of trouble not having to reapply until 2018 instead of every year!
I long for the day when I see Him for who He is, and I am so thankful for Jesus who never doubted Him the way that I do. I still have a long way to go in learning to release control and trust His plan and timing, but He promises to love me while He finishes the work He began!
Please pray He would direct the planning process for departure! We will keep you posted when the dates are set.